When Haziq Is Already at This Age

.....the most frequent question I get would be...

so...when's your next one?

most of the time I would just smile and say "lambat lagi kot".

When actually deep inside me I actually would love to be preggie again despite the awful morning sickness I had to go through almost throughout the pregnancy.

but...

there's so many things to consider. Here are my thoughts on being pregnant again (in random order)

1) being pregnant again would mean Haziq will get either a lil' sister or a lil' brother. Personally I would prefer the latter so that both of them can be best buds. On the other hand with the former, Haziq gets to be a big brother to her, I think that would be sooooo cute. In conclusion, doesn't matter boy or girl I'm sure Haziq, Ibu & Ayah would be thrilled.

2) am I ready for this? mentally & physically. To be honest I'm not quite sure myself. The thought of having two babies scares me but at the same time I miss holding a small baby in my arms although I usually hold Haziq as though he's still this tiny little creature we brought home from the hospital about a year ago hehe. U see, when Haziq was small and helpless, I would often say "cepat la Haziq besar, then he can do things on his own" But now that he's almost independent, I miss those moments when all he could do was wait for me to attend to his needs. And you know what I miss most? The sight of Haziq on his tummy when he first learned to roll-over, the sight if him mengesot ala combat all over the house. I don't get to see that anymore coz Haziq is so mobile nowadays.sigh.

3) Is Haziq ready to share our love with his lil' sibling? Would it be fair to him to have a sibling so early when he has yet to be fully pampered by us. Kesian plak rase kan. He still need all the attention we could give him. I'm sure when the baby arrives my attention will be divided. I'm scared that I will unintentionally neglect Haziq. I think Haziq is too small to understand this. So how?

4) Lagipun Mr Gynae kan advice to wait another 2 years before I become a mak buyong again hehe

5) Financially?? yeah...I think we'll be fine. No worries bout that. Barang2 baby semua dah ada. Haziq's baby clothes are all still in good condition. Think we can use them again. :)

6) Me....can I handle both of them? Taking care of haziq alone is a full time job seriously. There is not a day goes by that I don't geram with Haziq. That cheeky lil' boy is always up to something. The other day, after getting bored riding his trekker, he decided to stand on it. He already has one foot on it and was about the lift the other when I saw him and screamed to the top of my lung....luckily he didn't fall out of shocked hearing my scream hehe. When Hubby is around I have no worries coz Hubby can look after him while I do the chores or ehem...ehem...take care of a new baby...but if Hubby is not around. How?

So...in conclusion to my mumbling here....ooo wait...there is no conclusion. I guess we'll just wait and see and go with the flow. For now we'll just concentrate pampering Haziq and make him happy :)