..... im upset
......im tired
......my back and my whole body ache
......haven't been sleeping well lately
......my heartburn is not leaving me alone
it can get worse than this i know...so im holding on.....on a happier note....i have my mother to constantly reminding me to count my blessings. and if you know what had happened this last few weeks..then you'd understand. let's just say....what had happened has taught me a lot. it's nothing new to learn actually but it's just that sometimes i tend to take things for granted. what i have...i tend to look for more but not appreciate what i already have fully. get me? anyways....thank you God for the valuable lesson.it has made me work harder to be close to you, to know that i should completely surrender myself, my life, my fate to you and let you decide what's best for me and my family. in school i've learned what tawakkal means....but last few weeks saw me really absorbing myself into the meaning of that word.sigh. how little i know...how little i actually do practice my religion...how ignorant i was.shameful.i still have a long way to go.a lot to learn.dear God....please guide me.
