Al-Fatihah

I got this in the email this morning:

Assalammualaikum W.B.T,

Kawan2 sekelian,

Baby kepada salah seorang sahabat U*P kita, saudari F***h A***a (A*u) telah meninggal dunia petang semalam disebabkan oleh penyakit saraf yg dideritainya semenjak lahir.

Oleh itu, sama-samalah kita menghadiahkan Al-Fatihah & mendoakan akan kesejahteraan roh-nya ~ Al-Fatihah.

Best Regards,


Tears rolled down my cheek. My heart goes out to her and hope she will be strong to overcome this. I suddenly realised that I am so grateful Haziq was born normal and healthy.Alhamdulillah....I just cannot imagine being in her position and I don't think I ever want to. I wanna go back and hug Haziq :(

Al-Fatihah....

Happy Birthday Haziq

Haziq turns 7 months today. Wow...can't believe it. Dah besar anak Ibu sorang nih ek. Sometimes I just can't keep up with him. He's so fast...seriously....I turn away to do something, in split second he's already a meter away from me. He still can't crawl properly...but he mengesut...he tried lifting up his bum few times but only got him forward few inches...hehe....he likes to sit when I put him in that position but still can't still on his own. Yesterday we were at a groceries shop and suddenly there was a loud sound of a big bike passing through and Haziq just went beserk trying to find where the sound came from. Imagine me..holding Haziq on one hand...keep in mind he is 10 kg now....another hand holding stuffs to buy....and then Haziq turning left and right searching for the sound...terhoyong hayang saya ok. After that the walk to the car was another agony (over kan),the moment I placed Haziq in his carseat and myself at the driver's seat....I sighed and almost wanted to cry....wakakak...not that I'm complaining pasal carrying Haziq but more of tensed that I get tired carrying Haziq easily. I really need to boost my stamina and build up some muscles...hehe.

On another note, Haziq can now say mama fluently although that's not exactly what I want him to call me tapi tkpe la kan. Will teach him to call me Ibu everyday.He is such an attention seeker. Kalau tak tengok dia and talk to him he'll get angry. Since he now likes to explore everything around him, this would include stuff at the tv cabinet. He will drag himself to it and start to reach out and grab whatever that he can. When I call out his name and tell him not to do such along with a straight garang face...he will look at me...smile and then continue with his mission....to grab anything that is within his reach. Aiseeeehhhh....I just can't leave him alone like I used to for awhile. But then again, this is part and parcel of being a mommy kan...kan.... :)Oooo...yeah....Haziq and the tv remote control are bestfriends....kalau dah ada kat tangan dia...he won't look at you at all....so we have to keep it away from him tapi kadang2 kan when I want to keep him quiet...I bagi dia main...huhuu...

Oooo...I got this from Babycenter today & I think it's a very useful info.

How can I identify a fever?
At 7 months, you know your baby pretty well and will probably be able to tell if something's amiss. To do a basic fever check, kiss or touch your baby's forehead — this simple test can be surprisingly accurate. If he feels warmer than usual, use a thermometer to confirm your suspicion and get a precise measure of his temperature. Although you often hear that a normal temperature is 98.6 degrees Fahrenheit (37 degrees Celsius), the reading for a healthy baby may fall anywhere between 97 and 100.4 degrees F (36 and 38 degrees C).

When should I worry?
Hard as it is to believe, a fever is your baby's friend — it means his body is heating up to fight off an infection. Nonetheless, call your baby's doctor if you're worried or if your baby has:
* a rectal temperature above 101 degrees F (38.3 degrees C), * an ear temperature above 100 degrees F (37.8 degrees C), or * an armpit temperature above 99 degrees F (37.2 degrees C).

Also call if the fever is accompanied by any of the following: difficulty breathing, appearance of small purple-red spots or large purple blotches on the skin, loss of appetite, inability to swallow, excessive drooling, a glossy-eyed or otherwise unusual appearance, or delirious, irritable, or otherwise unusual behavior. Mention these and any other symptoms to your doctor when you call.

What should I do to bring my baby's fever down?
Try removing layers of clothing, giving him a lukewarm tub or sponge bath, or letting him rest in a cool (not cold) room. Prevent dehydration by breast- or bottle-feeding frequently.

If these steps don't bring relief, call your baby's doctor to see if medication is in order. If it is, be sure to ask what doseage is appropriate at your baby's age — the safe amount is based on your baby's weight, which changes frequently. Remind the doctor if your baby is on any other medication, and never give a baby aspirin, which can cause Reye's syndrome in a child with a fever. If you can't reduce your baby's fever within an hour, call the doctor again.


Bagus kan info ni. Good thing I bought the digital thermometer kat Parenthood Exhibition few weeks back. Tak yah nak worry and tak sure whether he has temperature or not. Just check jer...and....Ibu and Ayah Haziq pun beria check temperature masing2 wakakka...

I leave you with some pictures of Haziq in action.


Jacket Ayah ni macam best ajer....I want it....hope Ibu is not looking...hehe


Ibu...what movie you wanna watch...let me help..I have the tv remote control you see....hehehe...

Ms zyi did this in her blog and tagged those who are in her blog list....so since boredom has taken control over me....so here we go....


1. what’s bothering you right now?

the fact that I'm at work and lil' Haziq is with his babysitter....me miss him soooo much...tk sabar nk balik :p

2. describe your:

wallet: brown, full of cards and receipts....
wallpaper on pc: hahaha...never realised it...just checked and it's M*** corporate logo...
bckgrnd on cellphone: gambo Haziq la...sape lagi la kan....
jewellery worn daily: tiada
eyes: black la...
life: hhhhhmmmm....very hectic but am loving it :)

3. what are you:

doing this wknd: planning an outing with my two fav men of course
wearing: office attire
wanting: a weekend get-away....
listening: colleagues around me talking on the phone...discussing...etc...
smell like: my perfume la..

4. do you:

believe in soulmate: yes I do
believe in miracles:absolutely
burn quickly in the sun: hhhhmmmm...i honestly never notice it...

sesape yg rase bosan tahap dewa tuh...sila kan la ek....cheers... :)

Out Of Stock La Plak...

Went to Mothercare KLCC during lunch time just now. The cool toy that I wanna buy for Haziq is out of stock la plak....isk...isk...looking forward to have haziq playing with it this weekend...tensen....but I left my contacts so that they can inform me when the stock is again available...hopefully soon... :)

My Long Weekend by Haziq Danial

Hi...today Ibu said I can write in her blog coz she wants me to practice my writing skills...vocab...bla...bla...so here I am. How was your long weekend??I had a wonderful one. It started with attending Aunty Parv's birthday bash at The Apartment, The Curve, Friday night. Ibu's close friends were there and I know that she had fun that night. I had fun too mingling with Ibu's friends. hehehe...Actually I don't really know how well the party went coz I slept even before they started their dinner, it was already past my bedtime. I decided not to give Ibu and Ayah a hard time putting me to sleep so without them noticing it I was already in la-la land. I'm a good boy :). So you can say that I missed the blowing candle part...the cutting cake part...and so on.But I woke up just in time for photo sessions....hehehe...of course I won't wanna miss that. No photos from our camera coz my uncle, Pak Ngah borrowed it.On the way back home, I heard Ibu said to Ayah "Haziq behaved well tonight, he's a big boy now kan". They thought I was not listening but I was and I smiled myself back to sleep.hehehe...

Saturday afternoon we headed back to Ayah's kampung. It's my first time going back so I was excited. Let me just brief you of my firsts:

1) it was the first time I played with a kitten. I reached out my hand and the lil' kitten reached out his paw.hehehe....it was fun but Ayah won't let me go on playing with the kitten cz he's afraid it will scratch me. Too bad...I really liked playing with it....

2) it was my first time seeing a rooster....but I like the kitten more....cuter :)

3) it was my first time mingling with all my neneks on Ayah's side and I must say...they are all very friendly and I think they adore me soooo much...serious....they hugged me...kissed me....pinched my cheek...oouuccchhh....

4) it was my first time sleeping under the big kelambu. I was fine with it but Ibu and Ayah can't stand it...Ayah felt hot sleeping under it...Ibu felt suffocated, so in the end we're good without the kelambu. hehehe...fortunately ada ubat nyamuk....can't imagine if there were none..... :p

5) it was my first time looking at a sawah padi....yup...probably when I'm bigger I will ask Ibu to let me play near the field. I'm sure it's gonna be all fun kan kan...

6) it was my first going to a pasar malam, where they sell fresh fish,crab, vegetables....straight from the sea and vegetables garden.some of the fish were still alive. I tried to reach out and touch them but Ibu wouldn't let me...boooohoooo....tkpe...Ibu...when I grow up...I wanna follow Ayah to his fishing trip...ok....

wowwww....I think I learned a lot during the weekend....can't wait for more fun trip. I wonder what Ibu has planned for the three of us.


Besides the fact that Ibu loves me...she also love to take my pictures while I'm sleeping....this is one of it...huhu...

No More Travelling....

I am super duper happy...elated to inform that I no longer need to go down to M**E every week like I've been doing for the past couple of months....yippie...:) pheewww...I don't want to do it anymore...and I hope I won't have to in the future. You know what...my last trip last Sunday till Tuesday...I left Haziq within the care of his Ayah...of course I have nothing to worry about....but the night my 'men' picked me up...Haziq was asleep in his car seat. He suddenly woke up when we were waiting to tapau our dinner. Being a mother who misses her baby terribly, I picked him up and kissed him and talked to him...but he did not respond to me, infact he looked away. Well...he just woke up...so I assumed he was a bit mamai la kan...ok...never mind...after a while I tried again talked to him and make funny faces...he usually would laugh out loud...but he didn't...again....hhhmmmm....then I asked Mr hubby to call out Haziq and make the usual funny faces....and guess what....Haziq gave Mr Hubby a smile and then laugh...aarrggghhhh....does this mean that he merajuk with me for leaving him for 3 blurdy days????waaaaaa.....saya sangat la terasa ok malam tuh....sedih tahap dewa...then I remembered when both Mr Hubby and Haziq sent me to the KLIA Transit station on Sunday.....I bid my goodbye to Haziq...kissing him and telling him to be good and not to trouble Ayah so much.....and you wanna know what he did???He turned away...yup he did that alright...he refused to look at me, instead he looked at Mr Hubby....see..this is what you get when you leave your baby every now and then...itu baru for only few days tuh...lum lagi for a longer period....I told my mom bout this and this is what she said....don't think that he's still a baby he doesn't understand what's going on around him. He knew that you were away and left him...maybe he merajuk la tuh.....My poor baby...I am soooooo sorry but my work requires me to go. But...hey my lil' pumpkin...your Ibu here won't go anywhere anymore....she'll be right here beside you attending to all your needs. I do not want to miss a thing... :)

On a different note.....today is a cool day for me coz my old-lembab-asyik-crash-pc has been replaced with a new Dell Intel (R) Pentium (R) 4, CPU, 2.60GHz, 1.00GB of RAM.....hahaha.....with a 19" monitor....la...la...laa.... :)

Okla...I have no idea how to end this post...so...babai.... :p

This Is A Quickie...

I managed to catch Transformer last Friday night with Mr hubby....yeyyy....best giler....Optimus Prime is one hell of a good looking robot...hehe...teruja saya melihat dia... :p

My Haziq turned 6 months yesterday. Happy 6th month birthday sayang...on his progress?

1) he can now roll over effortlessly....getting him ready is no longer a simple job....i turn around one second to take something...he's already on his tummy....the other day he tried to lift his bum...hehehe...but did not managed to go anywhere...i can see that he was frustrated...poor boy...slowly dear...but somehow he can drag himself from point A to point B.

2) ever since he starting teething....he shove everything in his hand into his mouth...so if you give him your hand..he will take it and bring it close to his mouth...it will look like he "salam" ing you....hehehe...so cute....

3) he called mama few times now....buu...also few times...hope later on he will learn to call me Ibu. No sign of calling Ayah yet though....:p

4) when having his bath...he likes to force me to put him in a sitting position...ehehe..anak Ibu nih...tak sabar2 nak duduk ye...I dare not let him seat unsupported cz I'm afraid his back is still not strong enough yet...but I let him seat every now and then with me holding him...ok kan...

I can't wait to see what's next...soon he will start to crawl...sit on his own....then he will wanna walk...sigh....I'm so excited.... :)

i think that's all for now....i got tonnes of work to do....ooo yeah...am now thinking on what to get Haziq for his birthday...hhhmmmm...any ideas friends???? ;)


The half year old boy is sleeping...notice the tak matching baju and seluar...yup...his baju got all wet coz he kept semburing his air liur...hehe



A kerek pose from Haziq....hehe

Happy Birthday Haziq Danial....I can't tell you how proud I am to be your Ibu... :)

He's Back...

Mr hubby is back.....yeeyyy...where did he go?? He went for his long-awaited fishing trip to Tasik Kenyir. He left on Tuesday night and only came back last night. Boy..am I relieved. I was a bit worried with him going all the way to Tasik Kenyir...you know with the uncertain weather nowadays and what have you in the jungle. But this is something that he really loves. Takkan la tak kasik pegi la kot kan. I'm trying to be an understanding wifey here.....lagipun...ehemmm...ehemmm...I plan to go to Jakarta next year with few colleagues...no certain plans yet but we're thinking....so...kalau Mr Hubby dah pegi fishing this year...next year it will be my turn la plak kan...kan.... :p

Anyways...5 days without Mr Hubby around was really challenging. Especially the part where I have send and pick up Haziq all by myself....not that I've never done it before but somehow it felt hard knowing that Mr Hubby is not a phone call away. So...I guess it was a good training for me as well. Taking care of Haziq alone at night was also another hurdle that I managed to pass through. Haziq sometimes buat perangai when its his bedtime. He likes to toss and turn continously sampai tertido...maner la tak Ibu dia ni kadang-kadang tensen....but Mr Hubby will patiently put him to sleep....while Ibu here continue with other housework.....hehe...so you can imagine how I had to deal with Haziq...aaarrggghhh...I so lack of patience but fortunately he was a good boy throughout...pheewww....On Friday I had to go down to Pasir Gudang, Johor for a meeting......alamak....had no choice but to ask my Mama to come down for the weekend to take care of lil' hero. Sib baik Mama memang ever willing to come down to see her 1st grandson....lega...but Mama went back on Sunday morning...it was just me and Haziq again. Sedih....

Mr Hubby called later in the afternoon saying that he will reach KL at night....so i have to pick him up at his office. So you can imagine I was counting the hour for Mr hubby to come home....hehehehe...so poyo...I miss him laaa.... :p Mr Hubby called at 10.30pm said he has arrived. Kesian Haziq...had to pick him up from his sleep and carry him to the car. He must be so sleepy that he didn't even open his eyes at all. Poor baby....but...when he saw Mr Hubby on the way up to our apartment....jeng..jeng....he gave Mr Hubby a sleepy-excited-I'm-happy-to-see-you smile it melt both our hearts....sob...sob....Mr hubby said dia rindu kan Haziq...eh...eh....Ibu haziq ni how la....:p


p/s: remember I said I'm off to a massage session on Saturday.....let's just say I am now a new rejuvenated person...seriously...the massage really makes me feel good and healthy...hehehe...the steam bath was a torture for me and my friend Miss Olyn. We even cheated by opening the door for a couple of minutes to cool down our body a bit. No one saw though....hehehe...can't wait for the next session.... :)

Updates lagi....

On Haziq

Despite the fact that Haziq can now meniarap effortlessly...he is still trying hard to roll himself....kelakar tengok...takpe...slowly my boy...you'll get there. I think he is experiencing stranger anxiety. Last week I brought him to my office coz I had to collect my tickets. My colleague dukung dia. He was ok when he saw me around but when I left him kejap to get the tickets....he cried beria ok. peeerrgghhh...satu office can hear...sabar ajer la. Plus I think he was not feeling well after his 5 months jab. Poor baby. I'm sorry I dragged you to my office. Actually I wanted to show you off to my colleagues. Huhuhu...He is also not very comfortable with my in laws. Nak kate tk selalu visit, I think he sees them at least every two weeks...in fact more frequent than he sees my parents....hhhmmmm....gotta perform an experiment. My parents are coming down this Thursday night after their last visit about 3 weeks ago...so we'll see how Haziq responds to them this time. Will make a report on that hehehe....Anyways...a visit to the clinic for his jab...showed that among others Haziq can so respond to his name and show preference on which toy he wants. Clever boy...

On a different note, I've been doing a lot of thinking...I mean a lot....there are still few more stuffs that I need to get for Haziq but am not sure which one to buy first. I need to get him:

1) A high-chair
2) A walker
3) This cool gadget from Mothercare that I saw in the brochure they sent me...
4) Another cool toy from Fisher Price
5) And also books for Haziq to read....yes I am nothing but an ambitious mother...I expect haziq to be more articulate than me....which I am not at all :p


So...these are just a few things that will be in my shopping cart for the next month or so...hehehe...

On Life

Life is beautiful....no complaints so far. I am hoping to unwind myself this Saturday with my best bud Miss Olyn. We're gonna treat ourselves to a session of massage....steam bath...blah...blah....waaaa....can't wait...jgn jeles ok.... :)

On Work

Very demanding but I can't help but feel it's also mundane hehe byk songeh la plak kan hehe. And this traveling every week is very tiring. Tapi saya kan kuli...maner lah boleh melawan :p



Ok la...I gotta go...my lunch hour is almost over hehe....till then...

adios...


Haziq trying to reach the camera...eh...eh...notty lil' tyke...

Dah Kawen???

Amaran : Post ini mungkin mengandungi unsur syok sendiri yang mungkin juga akan membuat pembaca sekalian seperti hendak muntah atau pun naik geli dan sgt la poyo nyer. oleh itu baca at your own risk :p

A conversation that took place in a cab on the way to the Senai Airport.

in the middle of the conversation....

Cab Driver : Eh....you umur berapa ha??? 20 ada???
Me : (tersengih)...eh no la...im 28 la this year..
Cab Driver : ye ker?? i ingat u dalam 20 -21 macam tu...
Me : Ye ke???(tersengih lagi...) hey...i dh ada sorang anak tau...baby boy 5 months old...
Cab Driver : Haaaa...u sudah ada anak??? u sudah kawen ker??
Me : Ya la....why?
Cab Driver : Takde la...selalu org biler dh ada anak sorang...body sure lari punyer...tp u maintain jer.....
Me : Ye ker??? tengkiu...tengkiu...(tersengih giler lebar ok)


bangga ok....hahaha...that made my day....to Andy the cab driver...this week i come down i sure call u one....wakakakaaa....

sekian macih.... :)

Happy Birthday to My Two Dearest Heroes....

Last 07/07/07, Mr Hubby turned 29 years old....so...Happy birthday dear....hope you like the present that I got you....
Last Friday 13/07/07, lil' Haziq turned 5 months old....Happy birthday lil' tyke.....the socks are just some of the things that I plan to buy for you....so please be patient ok...your Ibu here is quite busy with work lately....

I love you both to bits..... :)

Bummer....

I've already booked tickets to watch The Transformer...robot indisguised(betul ker spelling...malas nk check) (nyanyi ikut theme song dia...)with Mr. Hubby...since my parents are coming down for the weekend....they are more than willing to babysit lil' Haziq....excited...excited...excited.....too much excitement no good...true true...suddenly my Boss dropped the bombshell....Zaitul...you need to go down to M**E this Friday to attend the meeting with S******. errkk....But Mr. M, I plan to go down next week.....No...you go down this week and see what's going on and what can be resolved....I'll be going next week after I get your report. Waaaaaa......jadi kuli memang tak best ok....so there goes my romantic evening with Mr Hubby...Sorry dear.....I'll make it up to you when I come back..*wink*wink*.

You Are 91% Real

There's hardly a person on this earth more real than you are.You have no problem showing people who you are, flaws and all.For you, there couldn't be any other way. Because it's way too stressful to live an inauthentic life.You're very comfortable with yourself. And because of this, you're able to live an exciting, interesting, and challenging life.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howrealareyouquiz/">How Real Are You?

hehe...menarik betul benda ni yeee.... :p

Updates...Updates...Updates.....

How was your weekend people??? Hope it was a good one. I know I enjoyed my weekend. Brought Haziq to a Paed yesterday morning to check on the rashes that he's been developing on his forehead and around his neck. Kesian anak Ibu...kureng comel skit. I don't know why but I think it's the weather. Haziq is following my footsteps. I couldn't stand hot weather when I was small. Siap the doctor said to my mom that her daughter ni cannot stay in Malaysia, she has to stay at a cold climate country. But...here I am. sheeesshhh....well anyways...as expected the Paed said it's slight eczema. On my side of the family there's asthma running down the generation while on Hubby's side of the family there's sinus....hence Haziq is susceptible to eczema...tsk...tsk...kesian dia. Doctor adviced to put air cond in our room and the whole house for that matter. Shall leave that to Mr Hubby la kan. Other development....Haziq is now 8.7 kg...walauweeii...no wonder la I can only larat to dukung dia full 15 minutes without any complaints....aiyyyooo....but no worries...at least that's what the Paed said la...so I have no worries at all...hopefully when Haziq dah start active merangkak...he will lose some weight or at least back on the normal progress pace. Another interesting progress is......................Haziq is developing 2 teeth at his lower gum...boleh????terkejut beruk Ayah and Ibu dia...me being the inexperience mom tk perasan pun (smack on the head). No wonder la air liur asyik meleleh mcm dam pecah jer ha ha. People have been telling me probably because last time when I was preggie ada benda yang I idam but didn't get. Rupenyer Haziq nk tumbuh gigi. Did I consume too much calcium last time?? I took calcium as prescribed by Dr AA. Hhhmmmmm...tk kisah la kan. After the visit to the Paed, we went to Carrefour Wangsa Maju to buy some stuff and headed back home. Haziq slept all the way. Sian ...penat....

Later in the evening, kami keluar lagi hehe. This time headed to The Curve to meet up with my girlfriends. Met Parveen whom I have not seen since January I think. Was heavily preggie mase tuh. hehe. Haziq had fun gak kot but he was a bit cranky at first. My fault...maybe he was still sleepy...ok I'm a bad Ibu....Malam tuh sume org slept early....hehe...tired from too much of outing. So...that was my weekend. Now gotta get back to work. I took a 10 minutes break to write this post. Coz if I don't, I will never have the time to.....cheers everybody...have a good Monday :p

Macam - Macam Ada Pada Nama

Was Tagged by Madamme Rafiqah and since today I'm a bit free (boss besar tkd...hehehe) so I'm more than willing to do this. So here goes....

REQUIREMENTS : Write about what or how or why you gave the name(s) to your kid(s). QUANTITY: 5 people
TAG MODE: Firstly you leave their blog and post link and add to the list below and secondly you let the blogger you want to tag know that he/she has been tagged by commenting in his/her blog or etc.

When I was younger (tua dah rupenyer saya...sigh), I always wanted a baby boy to be my first child. Eventhough there was a point in my life where I did not want to get married or have babies. Hehe...what was I thinking. Well anyways....when Mr Hubby and I found that we're gonna have a baby boy, we already have a list of names that we like. My Hubby tak kisah sangat as long as it has good meaning. I wanted a simple name for my baby, not too long and not too short. Easy to pronounce and remember. One day when I was blog hopping (yes...i do that a lot mase preggie dulu...), I came across a blog where the writer has 3 children and one of them is named Haziq. I began to like the name and its a bonus that the meaning of the name is pandai. So, Haziq it is. But then I kinda like also the name Danial(check dlm buku...Danial...nama Nabi...so ok la kan).....hence....Haziq Danial bin Nasaruddin. Tetapi now whenever I tell people my baby boy's name is Haziq...they'll go like...ooooo...mcm yg dlm AF (Akademi Fantasia) tu yeee...NOT....firstly, I do not waste my time watching AF...and I for sure did not name my son after that singer....tolong la...tk sume org tergiler giler kan AF ok. Emosi skit.

So...itu la dia sedikit insight on how Haziq got his name. For my next baby (chewah....which will only materialise earliest in 2009)...be it a boy or a girl...makcik sudah ada few names in mind...heh...I'm prepared....for the names ajer laa...not prepared to get preggie again. :p

msau the meaning of SQ and Kiki
shopping mum the meaning of Justin and Isabelle
Judy Chow Terry S
hannon Rachel
Samm Gordon and Malcolm
Sasha lil J Mott 2 Monkeys
Fatty Poh's Fatty Boy
Kd NAMI & MIMI D
Abg Z Abg H Princess & Litle D DadofFour Siti Khadijah, Muhammad Yusof, Siti Kauthar, Muhammad Ibraheem and Muhammad Umar
Minahsongeh Camillia, Camarina, Cqistina
IzreenFara NadyaAzureen
Lolyta Haris
Nana Sarah Nur Aliah
Rafiqah Ashraff & Aliff

Zaitul Afizah Haziq Danial

Haziq when he was 2 weeks old :)

5 people to tag (I only know 3 mommies out there...so 3 it is la ok):
1. Shopper Mom
2. Lollies
3. Nana

Sigh...

I discovered something about a friend who broke up with her boyfriend sometime ago. I'm stunned....speechless. It made me wonder can a person really change after a failed relationship. Is the change necessary in order to move on??What if the change means that you have to sacrifice your principles that you hold up to all this while???Is it worth it??Is it the right thing to do??I understand that you gotta do what you gotta do in order to move on....to leave the broken pieces behind you....all the bad memories.....but...sigh....I don't know....somehow I disagree with her decision. But who I am to say anything....I'm not perfect myself :p

Hey...Look At Me....

I did it!!!!

Haziq decided to show of his ability to meniarap yesterday on his 4th month birthday. yippiiieee....Actually I think it was unintentionally coz before it happened, he was tossing and turning left and right and the last turn he may have pushed his lil' body a bit more..plus he was already at the edge of the mattress....wallllaaaaaa...siap sempat posing lagi ok. Urs truly punyer la excited cepat2 grabbed the camera. Too bad hubby was not around to witness this historical moment....probably u'll get the chance biler Haziq start to merangkak ye Mr Hubby dearest. I think this achievement calls for a celebration don't you think. Maybe I'll plan something la this weekend. You see...I've made a promise to myself that since I only get to spend 100% of my time with Haziq during weekend....so I will try to make sure there will always be activities for the three of us besides just lazing around the house :)

My Dilemma

This week it will be 2 weeks since Haziq is with me. For those yang tk tau...for the past one and a half month my parents were taking care of Haziq back in Ipoh. Reason being risau nak anta to a babysitter. Ye la kan...you hear so many stories pasal babysitter dera baby la...this and that...so after my pantang I agreed with the arrangement. But...urs truly ni tak boleh tahan rindukan si Haziq....nangis ari2....nangis on the phone when I hear his voice...nangis in the middle of the night when I suddenly wake up...yes..I cried a lot. So in the end....we looked for a babysitter near by our place and convinced my parents with the new arrangement. Akak yang we met ni was recommended by hubby's friend's mom.....so I'm a bit confident. Start June aritu, Haziq is beside me all time and so far I have no complains with the way Akak Ani takes care of Haziq. She even tolong potongkan kuku Haziq coz his Ibu here terlalu la takut nak potongkan.........so I'm suppose to be a happy mommy.......NOT!!!!!!!!!

I'm unhappy not because I feel burdened taking care of Haziq..of course not. I'm unhappy because I feel guilty. Now I feel guilty sending him to a stranger...I feel guilty everytime I get him ready in the morning...I feel guilty when he looks at me everytime I put on his clothes, I feel guilty every morning when I bid goodbye and kiss him before I leave for work, I feel guilty all the time and as I am writing this tears are rolling down my cheek...sheeessshhhh.

I always wonder what Haziq is thinking when he look at me. Is he angry that I am sending him to a babysitter??? Maybe he thinks I don't love him that much. I feel guilty to the extend I think I notice Haziq refuse to look at me everytime I pick him up in the evening. OMG....this is all killing me. Talked to hubby bout this and he said...put it this way...we go out to work and earn money to support the family...to give Haziq a better life and future. yeaahh...I know but I can't help but feel guilty and sad. I wish I can stay at home and take care of Haziq 24-7 but I guess it's impossible at the moment. I cannot stand the guilt....and I see no way of getting this guilt out of my system :(

Haziq baru lepas mandi

p/s: Haziq is 4 months old today..Happy Birthday my precious...love you to bits.... :)

Friday people....

I'm glad today is Friday...I can't wait to spend my weekend with my two heroes....this past few weeks has been very exhausting for me. Hey...Pak Lah is getting married haa...hhhhmmm....I can't stop but laugh I don't know why....anyway...all the best wishes for him...somehow his future bride reminds me of the present Philippines President....don't you think so??? happy weekend people...

Hello....

Hey...it's been a while since I last blogged. Reason being...I've been pretty occupied with work...yup....unbelievable isn't it. Work somehow have been very demanding lately which is very unusual. hehe....I don't know why but it's been very exhausting mentally and physically. Maybe it's this negotiation process I'm going through with the Human Resource. sigh.....

Well anyways.....let's put aside the petty stuff...I wanna talk about my little precious.hehe....Last weekend Haziq almost successfully meniarap. He managed to kinda pushed his butt but he left behind his shoulder....so he was half way meniarap half way kinda nak terbaring.....hahaha....I don't know whether you people can imagine that but I can tell you it was an exciting moment and also panicky moment when he didn't know how to baring back. I didn't take any pictures though coz I was soooo terkejut. My mom was screaming....hahaha...The doctor said probably Haziq will take a longer time to meniarap coz of his weight...he's 7.4kg mind you. So I guess I have to be patient. My mom said maybe he's to pressured.hehehe...his Ibu here keep on asking him "Haziq biler nak meniarap ni??I can't wait to see you meniarap" Yes...I'm guilty...I've been quite pushy....huhuhu...what else.... If you like to sing....sing to Haziq....he won't clap his hands but he will LOL at you....seriously...loudly that later on he will get hiccups...sooo cute (I'm bias...I know... :p)

"Hello peeps....this is me and my Ibu"